radical empathy put it out there
feeling around for a situation where
heartwhole empathy new best friend
consumes me burns me at
unknown ends toward
unknown ends till
sunshade filterlight starshine numbs
or I’m not there
for lack of need lackadaisy place
self care on the floorboards
while love soaks in my ink
and sheets smother my pink
desire and lavender silvertongue
hanging discourse on a low rung
while I stay in bed
I used to be the kinda witch who kept slim
But here I am naked gibbous snacking in the am
You see my dating prospects are looking beyond grim
So I’ve decided to get fat
Who’s anyone to say about that?
Cuz I’ve still got color changing eyes
A real round butt and beautiful thighs
And a way with words my head denies
But my heart keeps taking back
There’s nothing like a sunny rain
To sit in for a while and wait away the pain
Staring in the clouds watching for signs
Praying to the summer hoping tightness in throat declines
To precrash levels of sensitivity
Caffeine tells me that she’s been missing me
Three doses hit at once and I’m awake
I twirl a few times in the wet
Lightheaded brightness starts to flek
My troubled sightless overaware mind
You don’t know
The love in me
Though
I pop my top
I have lips
That you may not see
If by whim
I let one in
it is often
completely free, for them
Many times I have, then,
closed my grin
For I often trust others
for me
And this trust
runs thin
Friends who’ve been Impermanently kin
Raise a din of regret In my head
Memory ravages my bed - -
half awake from first alarm to
full awake from a call and
slipping on cotton clothes
more than a bit blind
sliding the pain back
the space my dreams
were using, to think,
but sunlight’s for ignoring
and forgetting, and breakfast
kale spinach carrots grapefruit blueberries
egg on toast coffee.
i sip and take a bite and
sip again and
more than a bit blind
in addition to the pain
wakeup (my mommies) dartpounce sprint jumponthe couchbedlaptopwindow licktoes dart pouncebite MIAUW hold me!!!! purrpurrpurr cuddles mommy purr eat sleep wakeup purrrcuddle chewlickchewlicklick YAAAAAAAAAAWN curluponmommy purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr yawnchewsleep